Just Breathe...

Every year our youth group goes this is awesome, amazing camp in PCB called Big Stuf. Well last year they had this booth that you could go into and write yourself a letter and depending on how long you set it, it would email it to you. Well I wrote mine and set it to send it to me a year later and well I got it today and here it what it said...
Well another year of college is down. Only 8 more to go! Hopefully if this year went good that is how long is left. If it didn't than God has something so great planned for your life that you have no clue about yet. If it has gone good than I hope that this is where you are suppose to be. Just remeber that you have people around you who love you so so much and that you can talk to about anything. No matter how down you feel, you are never alone. God is always there on your side. you just need to look to Him. Hopefully you are reading this and your life is just sailing along. More than likely though, you are going through something. just remeber that no matter what you do people will love you and God will always love you. Take some time for yourself. and remember to BREATHE!
Seriously, this letter could not have come at a better time. Right now I am taking Cal II over the summer and it is sucking big time. Yesterday I spent almost 6 hours doing a quiz 3 times only to recieve a 50 on it. It has just put me in a funk. Like I really do not want to do any of this anymore but I know that I have to. I don't think it is a coincidence that I got this letter today.
Ever since I got home for the summer I have kinda felt like an outsider and like I am not welcome here anymore which has made me really depresed. But getting this letter and some other things that have happended in the past two weeks, have showed me that I am loved. I just hope that I can remember that even if thing were to get bad again.

Lair, Liar

Why are people such liars?? Examples:
1. Last summer about 5 of us from my church to volunteer at camp for a week and had an amazing time doing it. We meet so many people and loved almost every minute of it, or atleast I did. I was so excited about being able to do it again this summer. I mean this is the only thing that I was going to get to do this summer except for Bonnaroo but that was a recent thing. Well tuesday I asked someone about it and they said that they had all of the volunteer spots filled without even asking us if we would want to do it again! Lets just say I was a little more than ticked! They told us when we left to go back home at the end of the week last summer that we would be the first people that they called this summer. Well we were not the first people nor were we called at all. But was everyone else asked back?? I am pretty sure so and I am pretty sure that most are going back. I am not going to hold my frustration back and say O its ok cause its not. I am ticked.

2. I love when someone that everyone who reads this blog, that I know of, knows twists things to make her sound like the victim with everything! But she is not the only one who does it. Her whole family does it and has been doing it for a while now. Up until recently people didn't see though it and was like "o poor so and so". But not Sarah. I saw through that BS from day one. And now everyone else it too. I mean does she really think that deleting everyone from Facebook is really going to effect us?? Well let me tell you, it does not.

3. This is not a liar, today, but boys. WAY too complicated!

As a little boy that my sister knew said, "Liar, Liar, pumpkin eater!"

It's been awhile

So summer has been happening for about a month now and nothing exciting has happened. I went to Maryland to see my sister, her husband, and my nephew the first weekend. And that is about all that has happened. As you can tell I lead an awesomely exciting life. But Bonnaroo is in a week and I am so so so so excited about it. I have wanted to see Kings of Leon for so long and now I get to see them and so many others. Jay-Z, Weezer, Dave Matthews Band, and so many others. But what I am not excited about is that this Saturday there is a community yard sale at the high school and I have to be there at 6:30 a.m!!!! The only reason I am doing it is cause I get to keep half the money that it makes and I am hurting for money. I tried finding a job for the summer but I did not have any luck at all. I put in about 10 applications and nothing. O well. I am done with this for now.